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Enveloping
Encircling
Eradicating
Heartfelt
[Thoughts.]

Lost now
In time
Mystically
Mystified.

Heartbreak
Strick'n
Unthought-
(Of)
Unwondered.

Simple
Expression
Favor
Returned?

Twisted
Bitches
Compassion-
Less
Nevermore.

(Ofcourse)
Remorse
Posting
Apologies.

Tigerhold, stronghold.

Six in one
explosion, expulsion,
eruption.
Sick, sweet flow
nowhere from,
nowhere to.
Derived therefrom
hidden inside
not within.
Golden rod
twitch, tick
forward stroke.
"Time marches on..."
you said once
does that make it better?
I never want to go
leave away from here
I know I belong.
You always say
"Let's get out of this town,"
I'll go with you.
But for now,
I am satisfied
here, with you, forever (or not).
Your choice of course,
but mine is to
take your hand.

Cream Colored Coat

There's alcohol and weed
In your carpet.
Storytelling
Ripped-
(And wood chips.)
I remember
Lying there
Trying to disappear
In(to) your carpet.
I became one
With the fibers
Sinking, slipping,
Forgetting...
(Or, trying to.)
You let this happen.
I returned to the room
And began to turn
That ugly shade of beige--
My skin, scratchy,
Riddled with dirt,
Grime, regret,
Remorse, and guilt
I have been overcome.
I have disappeared.

23 [months]

Time,
so much time,
dripping -
coherence.
Progression
time-lapse
(stills)
still surprising
still around.
Pounding hearts
horizontally parallel
interjecting plane
(thirty-degree angle)
growing perpendicular
together.
Snow
always snow
falling in my mind
to think of you...
Slushing about
sheer excitement
still today
still around.
Fluttering eyelashes
attempt
to feel wanted-
gentle touch
caress, caress.
Sitting here,
anticipation,
closing eyes and
wishing
"Show me, show me."
Tilted neck
invitation
craning now
in wait...
Breathing slowly,
(but heart is pounding),
I hear you now
drawing near.
Eyes closed tightly,
biting cheek,
swishing tongue
(your breath on my neck).
Planting tender kiss
a nibble
and more kisses.
I need this.
Sighing-
I'm sighing...
Invitation accepted
feeling wanted
knowing -- needed.
still loving
still around.

Ovenhead

Ulterior motives~
  I grow
     calloused
  [to your
         attempts]-
coughing
     in your coffin
  stifled expression
             in
     existentialism.
Riddled (of course)
   with holes of bullets
 (prohibition)
    wicked mission.
"Speak easy,"
        my friend.
Attraction
     but no friction
 invisible boundaries
      [hearts boundless-
           limitless]
    mind knows limits.
Scribbled memories
          as always,
      wasted away.
Uniform
     (chloroform)
   twisted tendencies
                longing
    for this advantage
        I shudder --
 I need this.

Worm Doctors

When I was in preschool, my class was in the garden learning about the earth and life -- and in turn, death. One of my more adventurous male classmates volunteered to dig in the sanctioned dirt pile, so my teacher handed him the spade and he began to chop away at the earth. His first few piles were uneventful, but the third produced a worm divided : divided by the spade.
The worm lay on the white cement squirming and wiggling -- in separate parts. I will never forget the yellow and red glistening innards protruding from the worm's slimy flesh. Concerned and disturbed, I begged my teacher to fix the worm. She explained that the worm doctors in the ground would certainly fix him right up, and that he would be whole again soon. Eagerly, I returned the worm to his element and left him to heal.

I have now realized that there is no such thing as a worm doctor... And that what has been halved can and will never be made whole again.

digital destinies revisited [ revulsions ]

i am irksome
  [irks him]
 repugnant, pungent prodigies
    solidified "masterpieces;"
 solidified - lie.
undulating capitulation
  (capitalization)
monopoly monotheistic
       god-forsaken
   god [forgotten]
reaching realizations
     affirmation
 wrong sensation
               (condensation?)
       condemnation.
superfluous supercede
   preceding consciousness
 expelling expulsions
              admitting admissions
       repulsing
                             r e p u l s i o n (s).

Swollen Rosen

I love how you held me ---

    my own weight disappeared

    into your grasp.

You held my world

       [and yours]

  so beautifully

       so 'rightly'.

I will never forget that embrace 

         all the days of my life.

~<3~

Anguish [wishful thinking] 

  monotonous ambiguities

drones rolling on...

      harping, dwelling

          past already passed.

Pointed pointing point

   driven through

       [ innards ] . 

Racing racist

    selective placement

    twisted operations

  a new age is upon us --

    dawning, dreading

Stockholm syndrome  

   identification --

      perverted fictitious 

  assertions

 competition

      vie for attention

   relation[shit]

             cramping, cramming

     pain, no love

  tilting ~harmonious~

Inharmonious cacophony

                   anomaly.

Find Within [Without Internal Perceptions] : (Reality Restored?)

 

'Fortified!' I cried

In attempt to convince myself

It not was a lie... 

But inside, I tried

To collapse the sieve 

Into which thoughts coincide --

I hide, they combine...

I am hollow.

~*~

Odorous adoration

        adore us

Pavement and pathways

                  led   a s t r a y~

Breaking, trading, creating

              planar obscurities

Any which way

     [whichever way the money trail leads?]

Stopping once, adjusting tie

   puff,harumph-- 

Bow down to worship

          serpentine lies (why try?)

Battered bruised broken bleeding

                                  bleating/pleading 

                     animagus.

Dirt creature, steady pace

   majestic deception  

                interception - reception

Receipt of purchase 

  [ on my dime ]

[g]olden memories 

      twisted perversion

             blackened penetration

(S)HE trouble marble - - - 

         garbled expression

  misunderestimation

Bloodcurdling fermentation

              procreation  -  desecration.